it happening again and again.. =)

what is happening? ya,, it almost 4 years.. again it happening..
it's really scary when i couldn't do anything to avoid this
i couldn't do my really best.. hardest to diminish all the bad thought..
all the bad impression.. the opposite feelings of love.. i couldn't stop thinking negatively.. ya.. this is really me..

aahhhhh.. y? y? is it me, who cannot tolerate.. let go of it.. acting as adult.. normal friends.. to act as the best bud... is hardest... it's really demanding!! ahhhhh.. (ssshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh)


thanks buddy..